So Ford is having a really cool contest. It's for the chance to own a 2014 Ford Fiesta, all you have to do is make a video explaining why you would be the best for this. You have to do a blog, vlog, and take pictures of the Ford Fiesta as incentive.
I know that I'm not always very good at posting once a day but when I do I'm surprised to get so many views. Anyways I hope I can win! :D
Oh Harley why do you torture yourself, over and over again? What is so appealing about Joker? Oh right, because you feel you can make him happy no matter what, especially when he tells you so all the time. I never thought I'd be so close to Harley Quinn like I am now. I use to always think, 'No matter what I will never try for a guy who abuses me.' Yet there I went and now I feel the pain.
Luckily my heart has let go of all love I had towards him. He tried to get me back but I made up my mind he will never have me. But I'm now fighting with my past self.
As if I haven't told you enough about my past but here we go again. In my hometown I had to learn how to fight and take out those who messed with me. I was so feared down in my hometown that some how my "fame" spread to the gangs up north. When I moved here some members of a gang gave me high respect.
I never said this but at times I would hope to get in a fight some days. I won't deny it the rush of having to defend and the thrill of landing a punch was sort of intoxicating. Since I also do what Batman does alot is bottle up my emotions. Why does one need to know that in reality I could just punch my Ex till I felt good?
No I don't ever let others know when my past self creeps up and tries to force it's way out. I'm glad that I have the church because without it, I would be the wildest girl you'd ever know. My hair would be a wild crazy style. I'd have multiple tattoo's, smoking whatever the heck I'd want. I'd own a motorbike and sleep around with whatever guy would want it.
Sounds scary, or unbelievable to my friends?
You'd be surprised. You see I've always been dark and with the sort of crap I've dealt with my life could've been the worst of all. I'd have probably would've put my breaking in skills to use to rob places. Yeah not so innocent. And man do people need to learn that fast about me. Yet the thing is this, all though I wouldn't be innocent without my church I stay fairly clean with it.
Now mind you I'm not perfect so whatever. But I'm a whole lot better then I would be without. You see people don't mess with me, as soon as I give one guy my infamous look he backs up faster then a scared deer being hunted by a bear. Either way my past self will come up. I can't hide my past it's a part of who I am. Being bullied and beaten you learn to grow up real quick. I've gotten use to what life gives me, but darn do I hope it all ends real quick. Otherwise I'm buying myself a punching bag for my pleasure to beat up. :P
What's the first thing you think of when you think of someone loving you? This is what I think of. "She looked at her fingers in his, feeling his heartbeat and the heat from his muscular frame through his clothes. She looked back up at his face, the hazel eyes under straight black hair, and she smiled. Then she leaned in and kissed him. She didn't think. Just felt, and smelled, and heard... Darren's heartbeat, his arms coming around her slowly, perfectly, the warmth of his body... and she melted into him. Darren was something firm and steady and still in a world that had been moving faster than she'd ever imagined. He kissed her back with strength and patience and the tiniest bit of desperation. Then he stopped. "The sun's set," he whispered. His face was still so close to hers that Donelle could feel his eyelashes against her skin. "We need to make camp." Donelle opened her eyes. The light was nearly gone, the sparkles she'd seen a trick of the sunset... or maybe not. "Right," she said, making no move to step back. "You dry the wood, I clear the ground?" Darren traced her jawline and smiled. "Yes," he said. He leaned in to kiss her brow." (c) to BookByYou Author Stephanie Ard OR maybe something like this? ""I want to be with you." The still moment lasted for two heartbeats before Darren groaned and seemed to give in to whatever he was fighting. He yanked her toward him and they met in their first kiss-and it was primal, ferocious, not a gentle kiss as Donelle had imagined. His mouth was so heated, so forceful, he might have been seeking to capture her very soul. And she wanted no less from him." (c) to BookByYou Author Kira Lerner and Ira Madison. And then you probably hope for an ending like this. ""I thought you wouldn't come, I thought I'd never see you again!" "I know." Darren raked his hands through her shoulder-length hair, pulling her close again. "Whenever we discussed the subject, I could not envision life in the future. It was only when you left that I realized that there was no future, no present, without you." (c) to BookByYou Author Kira Lerner and Ira Madison. Be honest you just got all kinds of tingles and just swooning feelings. I know I sure did. Yet these are all books. That is why I love my books more then anything. Especially these very special books right here. Book By You is a special website where you get to make yourself into the main character and then whomever you want can be added into the story. I absolutely love reading those two books over and over. Darren who is an imaginary character swooning me away. *sigh* So why the books and sweet romances they tell? Well I just had the funniest experience ever in a relationship. Now let me give some background. First off this guy asked me out. He kissed me on our first date. And he took me to meet his family first. Then he seemed to fall apart in what he wanted and then touched me when I didn't want to be touched. So what happened? Well on a night when he was supposedly going to California, he instead went to this dance our church was holding. I had told him I was going to be there but he didn't seem to care. He was there with another girl and when he saw me he didn't acknowledge me or anything. He just spent the whole night with her. I was crushed, and all I could do was cry for a good hour before getting the courage up to go in and just have fun with my amazing friends. I didn't tell them about him and what he did. But I couldn't believe it. This man who had blamed me so long for our failing relationship had decided not to officially break-up with me. (p.s. he had kissed me the night before) And brought another girl to be his date and ignored me. Later when I sent him a Facebook message, just stating the pain, he tried to play it off as if he was waiting for me to come to him. I was so mad. I knew that I loved him in fact I stayed with him even after he had hurt me so many times before. But this time I just was done. The best part, when I tried to kindly tell him that he had a problem, if he could just cheat on me like that, he blew up. When I asked him to tell me what I was doing wrong he said two things. The first was that I talked about marriage too early. This coming from the guy who kissed me first and introduced me to his family and touched me where I did not want to be touched. Second he then said that I wanted him to touch me there and that I dragged him down with thoughts of him wanting sex with me. Wait, wait, wait, so men you're telling me that I control your thoughts? Oh, well I'm sorry I didn't know I was your brain or your--- Anyways this was just so dumb. He could blame me all he wanted but he wouldn't look to see that he had a problem. I feel sad for him rather than angry. You see he won't ever have a good relationship if all he does is blame the girl. I told him stop, when he touched me inappropriately, as soon as I got control of my thoughts. Guys, when us girls like you and you touch us there it can be pretty hard to control ourselves. If you think you have trouble when it comes to your own thoughts us girls have it just a bit more rough. Anyways he then used how he needed to touch me there and everything. First off I've dated other guys. One of whom was very open about wanting sex with me. Ah, good old Aussies. But he never once pushed it as a need. I told him no sex and he respected it. If he got too far he'd just take a cold shower or relieve himself. He never once pushed me into feeling like the only way he could be ok was if I just had sex with him. So after learning all the really sad things about this guy that I didn't want to know I felt good about this being the official break-up. I'm glad to be able to say I'm single, true it's just before V-day but I don't care, I have Darren, Batman, Garrus, and Thane all to keep me happy and enjoy a great Valentine's day. Hope you all have a good week. KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!! Oh and just one other thing. If you ever have a guy who makes you feel like because of your body that you are the cause for him thinking of having sex with you, that you’re at fault. Ignore him and dump him. First off us women do not control their thoughts. They do and they need to take that responsibility. Men like to blame us women because of the abundance of pornography and how they can blame that for problems, so they can blame women for their sexual problems. A man can always control himself or at least have enough respect to never push you into doing whatever he wants and thus he shows that he loves you. Now if I wasn’t looking for marriage and was willing to move to Australia I would’ve stayed with my Ex. But because of those two big things we didn’t last. But now I’ve just decided that whatever guy comes into my life he has to be thinking about me before himself. Because when it’s true love that you have for one another you will think of the other person and their needs and feelings WAY before your own. That’s how I ended up getting hurt so much. This guy all he did was just think of himself and his needs alone and not whether or not if I’d want him to do those things, even when I was first saying no long before he touched me. He chose not to listen to me and just do what he wanted. After he had touched me there was some blood and he had bruised my leg badly. This man who said over and over that he cared. Men do you really think us women want a man who is rough? Ignore the stupid book called 50 shades of whatever, that author spurted out lies of what women want. We want to be handled gently especially since for us when we first have sex it can hurt and just be very uncomfortable if not handled with the utmost care. As a man your job is to be strong when protecting your family but gentle when holding the love of your life. When a woman says that she loves you, decide right then and there if you love her as well. And if you just think of her only for the sex then let her go. I know it’s hard to not be selfish but when you want a relationship you HAVE to be selfless and think of your partner before yourself. Now don’t neglect yourself either, don’t just let yourself keep getting hurt. Be smart in your endeavors for a strong and healthy relationship. My hope is to find a man who will when we are together ask me what I want to do first before suggesting his ideas. A man who when we are out in public opens my door and holds my hand. Steals quick kisses, only ending the night with a passionate kiss. Holds me close in his arms, just makes me feel like I never have to worry or be afraid. I know that is a lot to ask but I do believe that there is a guy like that out there somewhere. Hope I can see him soon. Anyways I now shall end my blog. Ladies remember you are worth more than just sex and if no guy can make you feel that way then don’t worry. You DO NOT have to have a man in your life to feel complete you just need your confidence to do that. Anyways I’m gonna get some chocolate and celebrate V-day by going out and giving service. Oh, and getting a free massage and prize from Planet Beach!!! I went to this cool event, before the break-up, called Diva’s Day Out. It was so much fun, there was lots of chocolates and sweets and free waxing, photo booth, Drag Queen show, and so much more. Anyways I entered many times for a chance to win grand prizes. I won a prize!!! YAY!!! Will write about it for you all to know if they are well worth the money. HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!
