I still have many around me who love me and care but I've notice more of those who when I need help choose to turn it down. Now I get things happening but when someone REALLY needs you, you should jump into action. I don't know why but my cars Serpentine Belt got shredded while I was nearly home. I couldn't believe it and immediately I fell on my knees and cried. I'm still crying, you see I've never gotten a break on being tried. I get an amazing job next thing I know the item I need the most gets a big problem. I wanted to crash down and just disappear. I wanted to just leave be done.
And yet it just isn't in me to give up. I cry a lot and not a single soul around to just hold me when I'm in so much pain. I've gotten use to keeping my pain to myself and just keep a positive outlook for the sake of others, but I noticed people then begin to think I don't need any help or anything. I finally just have a melt down. There was once upon a time a guy from Australia who would hold me as I'd cry and say how strong I was in that moment.
In that moment I realized how no matter how strong someone seems they always need some love from someone. I don't know what will happen but I do know I'm not giving up even if it means saying good-bye to my most favorite and wonderful job ever and moving back to the town that once hated me. I just know this before all that I'm buying lots of Xbox360 games and a new Xbox360, thanks to Xbox One for dropping the price on the old consoles. :) Hey one blessing for the day. :P
KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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