You ever have that chance to date and then as soon as you try to go out with the guy your gut twists in pain and you feel sick? Want to know what's even more fun? When you finally realize you're just gonna be single for several long years.
Now what do I mean by that? Well I realized it while trying to get over my anxiety to date this guy. He simply choose trying to date me just wasn't a option. Of course at first he was pretty dead set on dating me but after another meet up and talking he just realized waiting for me to be comfortable with him wasn't worth it. And I don't blame him, to be honest I had come to the conclusion that I would need to end it soon.
Now I'm single and I've learned one big thing, to love it! Sometimes especially in my church, it is such a pushed upon idea of if you're single you're miserable. Well to be honest every time I was in a relationship was the time I was miserable. Especially now. You see it's been months sent my previous relationship.
If you want to know what happened go and read the earlier posts. Anyways, with what he had done to me my mind and body feared men. Now mind you these were just men I have no idea about, or even guys texting me saying how they want to make out.
I am comfortable around my best guy friends, they make me smile and laugh and I just enjoy their company. Why? Because I've been alone with them in a room and not once have they betrayed my trust. Now maybe they just don't care about me romantically (that's the fancy term) but still.
So why have I determined being single is better for me? Because I'm relaxed and happy with myself. I don't care about having to have someone in my life. If a guy gets brave and becomes like Batman and then asks me out, good on him.
Until then no guy wants to do that, they don't want to get to know me as a friend first or even wait for my anxiety to be over come well anyways it doesn't matter.
I'm gonna stay the video gaming, batman loving, goofball of a girl. I love me!
KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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