The Constitution of the United States is the origin of my country. Because it is the whole declaration of my rights in this country I took it upon myself to read and study it again. My father while growing up had a copy of the original hanging in our house. I would walk past it and always stop even if I didn't read the whole thing I always read the first paragraph, "We the People of the United States in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defence, promote the general Welfare, an secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America." Or if you saw School House Rock it would be more like this:
So of course I just wanted to know more and more. Upon reading it there were many articles put in there that were being ignored or regarded as not as important. The first is the payment of our President. From recent studies the President now a days makes $400k. I made at the most of my earned income in a year $10k, yet I didn't suffer nor die from living off that amount. In fact I was really well off, I was able to pay for my car, get it repairs, buy food, pay rent, and buy gas. I think $400k is WAY too excessive. So I found the paragraph on the payment for the President in his term. It reads, "THE PRESIDENT SHALL, AT STATED TIMES, RECEIVE FOR HIS SERVICES, A COMPENSATION, WHICH SHALL NEITHER BE INCREASED NOR DIMINISHED DURING THE PERIOD FOR WHICH HE SHALL HAVE BEEN ELECTED, AND HE SHALL NOT RECEIVE WITHIN THAT PERIOD ANY OTHER EMOLUMENT FROM THE UNITED STATES, OR ANY OF THEM." Did you read that? Let me explain what I have read, basically under no circumstance must the President's Compensation be increased nor decreased at any time. So how is it that our President went from being paid $25k a year (Geroge Washington) to $400k a year (Barrack Obama)? As I said for me alone I can live on $10k a year comfortably. So why is it then that the compensation went up so much despite what our Constitution has said? The Government may say because of Inflation but that is not the case, no it is them trying to slowly suffocate our Constitutional rights. And they are doing it with the full knowledge of you never truly studied the Constitution. I encourage all, even those who are not of my Country to read the Constitution. It is for your benefit it is a great document to teach you to help you to fight against the Government to retain your rights for Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness. I write this now because the longer I sit watching the nation that my ancestors and Grandfather fought so hard to protect die, will mean I had no right in saying I am an American. I am proud of who I am and where I come from. I see no reason to feel ashamed, I feel only to learn of past mistakes and seek to never see them happen again. I see only to work to make this world the best it can be for when I have children so that they may live happy lives, with Liberty and Justice. I hope that this does not fall upon deaf ears(or blind eyes), I hope you stand for what you believe in and never feel ashamed nor worried because of what you believe. KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!!
Have you just had one of those weekends where every possible thing that could go wrong does? Yeah I just had one of those. To start off the stress was having to listen to all my guy friends (only one who asked me out, the rest have never done so) whine about being friendzoned. I would love to go out with all of them but none of them get the courage to ask me out. :( But it just hurts more when they choose to stay "friendzoned" because that 1 girl didn't say yes.
Now let me vent about that for a bit. There are over a billion people in this world. And in an average city there resides about 10,000-50,000 people. Yet you would allow for your selfishness to just be absorbed by the one girl you thought was perfect saying, no let's just be friends? Are you kidding me?
Now if you're a girl and you haven't been asked out properly by any guy then you should try asking them out. I have been rejected 35 different times. Yeah I'm stubborn but I also know that there is not a one and only until you have been married and then work together to keep your one and only.
Friendzone was just a yeah for guys to not have to ask out any other girls who didn't fit their ideal. Have you tried going out with other girls? Or were you too busy being that one girl who rejected you friend that you just didn't bother?
And look being friends first is awesome, but if she said no then the answer is NO! And she wasn't as ideal or perfect as you thought she was, because if you really are as nice as you say and she doesn't like that then she isn't worth it. But be aware you may not be as "nice" as you think you are.
So that was just the first of the stress, the next was my cat Bolt. Here's a video of him.
Cute right? Well he got sick, and so we to him to the vet. Luckily he's all good now and back to being his slightly wobbly self again.
Now the last. I know that I never say things the way others can understand them. I say things the way I understand. But don't EVER bring up something so painful as when I was sexually assaulted and then tell me I was lying. That has to hurt the worst.
A friend of mine called me to pick up a bag of clothes, which after she confronted me saying that I had been lying to her about a number of things. But it all apparently started when Facebook (a website that is imperfect) had my birthday posted as October 10th rather than October 5th. Because of that she accused me of other things, which I was honest in and it bothered me.
But when she claimed I had lied about "fighting off" my friends parents, who were hurting them, that I then should've been able to have fought off the Monster. First of all I don't have that great of a memory but I know I never once told her how I dodged flying bullets. I just remember saying I gave my friends safety and fought their parents off by calling 911 for them. That was all I remember. But she was defiant in what I had said. I don't feel bad for writing this out because I need an outlet and if she reads this and gets hurt then she should know why.
Just because you heard something doesn't mean the person said it. If you do a study on the brain waves and how our ear-drums work you'll notice they're never in true pattern to what you hear or understand.
In her case she might have blocked out the rest seeing me in her mind fighting, after the word fought. But that doesn't mean I said what she thought.
But when she brought up what the Monster had done to me again I was stung. When I saw my guy friends and girlfriends after talking to her. I just wanted to fall into their arms and cry. I just want to cry to somebody but because I've never had a good experience crying to friends I just don't share that emotion.
I've been called weak, a liar, filth, disgusting, ugly, cruel, not of any worth, and a monster. If I could I would build a cabin far in the woods, I would then surround myself by animals and NEVER interact with humans. I try so hard to build on courage and strength but I can barely handle it when someone calls me something I'm not.
I know though that in the end I've met wonderful people whom I am so lucky to call friend. I may not let them in very much but I do love them all.
Now you all can say how sorry you feel for any guy who will become my husband. Because yes it will take time till he can open the door to my heart. I'm protective of myself because when I needed someone the most no one could come to help. So I learned how to keep myself safe.
Anyways I'm doing a Minecraft video soon on friendzone. It is basically what I said but you'll have to watch it. :)
The Boston bombings were a harsh cold reminder of Pearl Harbor and 9/11 for us Americans. You see in America we haven't experienced much in being attacked on our own soil. We now seem only to be attacked by those who betray our country. Betrayal, I bet many countries understand that very well. All though I'm not going to say America is the best and should be highly praised I will say this, it is a very safe country to live in compared to others. I feel so much sorrow while my friends scream how other countries should just take care of themselves. I don't think they understand that wars are happening outside of our country. I had a Grandfather who was U.S. Marine in WW2, I had an Uncle who fought in the Korean Wars. And I had a classmate who lost both of his legs in a bomb raid in Iraq. I grew up in a small military town, and we knew the horrors of war. War is one of the few things that most of us in this world NEVER want to see. We want to just keep to ourselves stay quiet and just live under the rule of our own individual governments. Yet I know soon there will be a massive war about to come. All though people call me crazy I feel it. The world is shaking it is ready to break out into attacks. One country hates the other. The anger is continuing to be fueled to no end. People want people dead. I know that many of you probably hate my country, and some for good reasons. I will not deny it America has done it's fair share of wrong choices, yet is a country you truly need to hate so much? The answer no. I love any and all other countries including Iraq, Afghanistan, North Korea, and Vietnam. And more of those countries we have fought against. Those countries are still amazing in their own right. So then why is it that pretty much all my American friends tell me how much you in other countries hate us? I have many friends in different countries. One in Japan, another in Russia, another in Australia, and so on. They tell me how they do like America, that they wouldn't want to live there but they like it. Because they know what we all need to know. Hate the ones that do evil but do not hate ALL the people of that one country. There are just as many good people as there are bad. Enough stereotyping, let's all be a WORLD united for peace. I know that I understand the purpose of war but always in the end I scream for it to end. Bring back our peace, bring back that we are all ONE. KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!
It's a time of romance and love and relationships. It is Spring. I usually enjoy this season but this year my heart is really sore, especially when watching my friends who are relationships being all cozy and lovey-dovey with their significant other. What hurts most, is knowing that the monster has also gotten another relationship. Whenever I think about relationships I just laugh them off. Of course I want to be held by a man and I want to be shown what it's like to have a man in the family again. You see I'm one of those few girls who are said to have daddy issues. To know more look for lexywolze.com post on that. But because my father died when I was only ten and my mother never remarried there was no man in the house. And just having nothing but sisters meant even less of a chance for me to get to know men. Till I realized, I wasn't that different from men. Sadly that was the problem. I am so much like a normal man that my guy friends say it would be too weird to date me. Great so now my guy friends are pretty much saying they'd feel so uncomfortable if they'd date me. That's great, and yet they do things that make me feel they're interested. They sit close to me even touching my hand or arm. They want to see me smile and laugh. They take me to eat my favorite food. They come to my rescue when I need them. Yet in the end they won't ever ask me out. Yup I know welcome to the friendzone. But man I just want to try dating with them once. Then if the dating scene doesn't work we can go ahead and call it good. But none seem to be wanting that. Sigh, and then they wonder why they get friend zoned. Well sorry to say this but Karma it's such a pain. Anyways I guess what I'm saying is if you NEVER try then don't ever expect to get an answer. And some of you might be thinking have you asked any of them out. Yes, but I've been rejected by them all. So I stopped because I felt you know what I want a guy who has the courage to ask me out. I'd be more than willing to post all of the guys names on here whom I wish would ask me out. But in the end I just do what I can to show them that I'm a girl, who can be more than "just" a best friend. Anyways get out there ask someone out. If they say no before giving you a chance, then they were never really true friends. It takes one line, "Will you go out with me?" Good luck my fellow peeps in the friendzone. KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!
I always wondered where is my life going? I use to think that I did but now I've realised I have no clue where my life is going. I only know that I am trying to be the best me that I can be, and well that's it. I have a YouTube partnership and here I'm able to write about my thoughts and feelings. I don't know when or where I will make money I just know that I am here wandering around trying to think and learn. Sometimes I wonder if I should just stop trying to lead my life in the way I want and just let it flow the way it is suppose to. Kind of like how you can't really force a river to change it's course, like a river like the Mississippi. That river is huge and really could never be changed same goes for the Nile and many other large rivers. When I thought of that I remembered you see we are nature. Our bodies have the same genetic compounds as the soil you walk on. So just like nature we should stop pushing too much to have what we feel is best for us. In nature it is determined what is best. I feel that already what is best for me has been laid out I just need to relax and let it unfold before me. I always have hope for better things to come. I'm going to just relax and see where nature takes me on this wild ride called life. KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!!
So slowly I have noticed where my viewers are from. Lot's of you are from Russia, Germany, UK, South Korea, and Japan. Thanks so much for reading my blog. :) Anyways, so I was just sitting here today my poor body still tired from the recent insomnia I've been having. My lack of sleep is all because of trying to think of more ways to make money. I love to write so I also felt like my writing would be one way. But after losing my precious book it's been a struggle to feel it is worth it. I've been doing many video recordings for YouTube but in the end I know that it still will take some time for that to bring in money. And then on here. I try to post the items I like on Zazzle in hopes that someone will buy one so I can make a few cents. But in the end I keep on trying to apply for work but no money is coming in. I've been buying some Big Bang songs. If you don't know them they are a South Korean boy-band, and to just add they are so hot! lol, sorry I have a big thing for the foreigners.
I know in a previous post I stated I want some one who was a homeboy but clearly no homeboy wants me. So instead I've made friends with those outside of my country of America. We have fun times talking and laughing. I really enjoy being able to make friends so easily. I think the main reason is because I just don't judge. I'll share the story on here now. Where I'm from my school never taught about races. So one day in middle school we were taking an exam and on the front was the bubbles asking you to explain your name and other info. When we all in my class got to the one about race, we were confused. "What is race?" Our teacher went to explain a bit and the instructor was very mad. We were then taught how to learn all the terrible things of all races. But there was one thing that bothered me. It was made to make white's look like they were the only evil beings in the world. Our class hated it and we asked for them to stop. Why did we want to develope anger towards each other for our race? We didn't. You see in my hometown we are taught that we are all ONE race, that race is called the Human Race. Imagine if we all thought this, that there was no difference in skin color, sexual orientation, religious belief, but that we all were humans deserving of love and kindness? Yeah, too much to ask for right, because one friend to argue why we must see race is to know that whites need to be punished for all they did. Right? After all whites are the only race to do evil things. Has no one seriously read history? I won't deny the evils done by the white race but all the races have done evil things. Drop the act, remembering the evil keeps it on going. A veteran in my hometown once said, "If we could only forget the wars we had, then we'd never have to face war in the future." If you replace the word war with hate, fear, sorrow, and anger you'd get the same thing. In the end holding onto what you think you deserve is stupid. If you treat others the way you'd want to be treated then you'd be amazed at the change. Step up make a change start saying I'm of the human race! Be happy with yourself. Love everyone and don't judge. Just remember we are all humans. :) KEEP BELIEVING!!!!!!!
