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Editor's Note: Please understand that I know that he won't. I voice my concern to help other girls in my shoes. I know that he cares about me so he wouldn't break up with me over that. I just thought about it and wrote it.
So there is just a lot going on the world right now. To begin with people have become a whole lot more lazy and don't want to work for themselves. And then there are those who are so desperate that they will give up everything that is important just to make more money then the rest.
So there is just a lot going on the world right now. To begin with people have become a whole lot more lazy and don't want to work for themselves. And then there are those who are so desperate that they will give up everything that is important just to make more money then the rest.
So which are you?
For me I'm a hard worker but I work hard to not let it control who and what is important in my life. I always put friends and family first. But then again I have been stuck in a mud hole wanting to move forward but feeling stuck.
I have the kind of body that most people find to be a very sexual body. I have a perfect hourglass, large chest and just a very nicely proportioned body. But this body sometimes makes me want to go and have surgery just so that I can look like a plain Jane. Why? Well last night I struggled with myself feeling that the guy whom I'm falling for might be feeling too tempted by my body. That scared me, a lot. You see this guy is a good Mormon. He goes to the temple and works to stay worthy. But I'm always worried that my body will tempt him or that I will do something that will be tempting with out knowing it.
I have had guys break up with me saying, "Your body just is too tempting for me. You make me want to sin all the time." I feel like I'm dragging down these men and making them feel like dogs just because of my body. I live in Nevada and when I go into Casino's many managers want to hire me to be a cocktail waitress. I, sigh, I just want a normal body and know what would be non-tempting moves.
Now girls how many of you want to trade spots? Yeah I won't deny the fact that many guys look me over, but I hate it. I also won't deny that I could sell my body for sex and make a killing. But I don't like any of those. I remember why I wore a baggy shirt and pants just so that no one could see my body.
I was always being given sexual taunts while growing up because I developed faster then most girls. I just learned to hate my body. But this guy he makes me feel like my body is beautiful. But then I worry am I tempting him? I know that maybe I shouldn't but what if he were to feel like I was tempting him too much that he just wanted to break up with me? I'm sorry I just worry.
Anyways if you read for this long I'm surprised. Lol, I am doing ok I have money for Christmas presents and that makes me very happy. Anyways please remember this one thing, none of us will ever be equal. Crying for equality is in vain, but crying for everyone to be on common ground isn't.
KEEP BELIEVING!!!!
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