Finding My Worlds: Do you still believe?

So how's it going? Anyways I've just been struggling more and more trying to make a difference in my life and that difference hasn't taken form. What difference am I talking about? The difference of wealth or just enough money to finally just survive.
Gonna stick with the green now. :P But anyways I've just been trying to make enough. Just enough to continue fun video game playthroughs, just enough to get my car fixed.
My poor little car, ok so recently it has been squealing and I don't have the money to take it in to get fixed nor to get it an oil change. :(
I hate this whole trying to just survive. I literally have nothing without the money or means. Yet here I am blabbering about 1st world problems. Yet it has to be something so interesting.
You see without money there is like no way to do anything. You can't donate to help others and you just are barely breathing to make it. When has money been so consuming in life? I don't know but it makes me sad.
I know that honestly I can't say if I was a millionaire I would never misuse the money. I don't know that for sure, I've never been a millionaire. But in the end I'd hope that if I did have that I would then buy the little house. http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/products/b53/#ad-image-7 I love this little house.
My dream car. http://www.ford.com/cars/focus/trim/electric/ And then to officially adopt my foster wobbly cat, two pitbulls and another homeless kitty. That's my hope, then whatever would be left would go to charities and foundations. Would go to help make a difference.
But again I will never know. Anyways, I just have to keep pushing on.
KEEP BELIEVING!!!